American Idol: Home, by Chris Daughtry

The first time I heard this song it immediately touched me. It became personal instantly...

I'm staring out into the night
And trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
can feel but they dont live the cost of fame
In pain it feels a different kind of pain
I'm going home to the place where I belong
where your love has always been enough for me
I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
The miles are getting longer it seems
The closer I get to you.... babe
And I've always been the best man and friend for you
To love and make true and I dont know why
You always seem to give me another try
I'm going home
To the place where I belong
Where your love has always been good enough for me
I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
Be careful what you wish for
cause you just might get it all
you just might get it all and then some you dont want
be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all
I'm going home to the place where I belong
Where your love has always been enough for me
And I'm running from.. you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me'
But these places and these faces are getting old
But these places and these faces are getting old
I'm going home
I'm going home

I am dreaming
I was awakened
Returned to my sleep
Dreamt again
I woke up
But slept again
I kept on…
When will my dream last?
With grace, I become conscious
I am wide awake
I am living my dream.

I’ m going back home.

I’m going back to my dreams, my values, to where I started it all.

On my journey back home, I have so many questions. Will the Family still recognize me? What have I accomplished so far? How far did I go? What are my stories to tell? Will I be talking about good memories and triumphs, or life’s mediocrity? Did I make Them proud? And, why am I going back so soon?

I am coming back home. “I” is no longer the girl they used to know. I become like water which gives life, takes shapes as it goes places, hardens to turn into ice, disappear and come back anew from the clouds above.

I am getting home. For, God wants me to return to home. He misses and calls me to take a break. He knows what I need and His timing is always perfect. I need not say anything because my Family already knows everything…

“Father, thank You for the chance to rest. My heart is overflowing with Your unconditional love. You are my guide, my strength and my wisdom. Your mercy and goodness are following me. When I’m out there again, I know I am not alone. I am more confident that I never was. I believe life will be easier. All the successes, happiness and goodness, beyond my expectations, await me. I will shine because I have Your favor.”

Today is the start of the holy week. As a Christian country, it has been a customary that we pause and observe the commemoration of the very foundation of our Christian faith.

We may have different ways on how we celebrate it. Some follow the religious and conservative way. Some may be just taking the opportunity for a vacation. Nevertheless, let’s not be the judge of if there’s a proper way to do anything for that matter. In this case what I do know is that we should at least “remember”.

On a different note, one of the sweetest memories I have is the photo with Minette, Sherille and Ferdie. It’s the last Christmas party we had as officemates. We have no idea that it will be our last together but I guess it doesn’t matter because even if we are far away, real friends are always and forever will be friends. More than distance, it’s the chance you took by knowing that person and the commitment you’ve made to your self which makes it worthwhile and special. Just like any relationship, it takes communication, understanding, patience, time and faithfulness to keep it.

In this journey, only some that have seen us in our best and worst of times will accept and choose to stay.

No matter how difficult our challenges may be, we have no choice but to face it. We may not be able to comprehend it, we just choose to believe that there’s a far greater reason for everything. And, just like anything else in this world, this too shall pass.

We are not always the main characters. We have done some things that have affected and caused pain to others as well. Some we may be aware of. Some may just be insignificant to us. But for those who matters to us, we ask for forgiveness. In our effort to be a better person, even if it’s not asked, we also try to forgive… Either way, it’s not easy. But it’s something that God has already placed before us.

When it’s not okay, we can tell ourselves “It’s not going to be by your might. It’s not going to be by your power. God said it’s going to be by His Spirit.” Pray.